deepest me.

know what? i always been so easily upset.
why is that so ? i have no one to speak to at home.
how i wish i have got a soul sister that i can speak to.
a soul sister that won't need me when she does and dump me off when she don't.

i'm so confused, i always hope to have someone that i can vent my anger on, and tell her how much i feel about in my heart. i regretted totally. that i din study harder during secondary school.
and when i quit my CCA as a netballer.
look at my cousin, she's a lucky child, she got tuition and full time for her studies and CCA.
but i don't , my dad always thinks that we got to help him out at his shop. and he believe that we can study on our own. how on earth do we have a chance to study.
so much of negative comments.

what made me changed to be a rebellious child? do you really understand me ?
why am i bottled up all my frustrastion? i always think why am i stuck here?
all i need was your support.  i just spoken to my bro for like a few mins. nothing solve my frustrastion.
he said i'm spending my money unnecessary, but bro i'm still a girl after all.
i need to get myself doll up and i'm spending my money on my school fees too.
you know i wanted so badly to have a peaceful and happy family.
my dad don't take my comments and my mum loves my brothers.

i'm just a 20 lady, i need freedom and enjoyment too. do you really think that working for you will give me my goals?
in the past i gave up all my working experience. this society is really cruel. but damn.
he don't get it at all. what can i really do? so much of questions and problems.
i know i;m a problematic girl. because i have nothing at all.
i get all the pretty nice things by my hardship.
since young my dad have been cruel to me , even mum, they want me to get all the things i want by achievement.
i guess i really need to be like krystal, get a part time nightlife job.
i don't like to be at home. dad is unreasonable. even if you gonna ask me to talk to him about this , i guess he will just can't be bothered .

i realized blogging have become my soul partner. someone who can understand me and listen to all i wanna say.

there's someone who will understand me totally, but someone is gone and it's forever.

i just wanna be happy.