Happiness of the Rain

i'm kinda weird , i don't know what the heck i'm thinking . things are too good to be believe. and i fall down once again.

dearest, i will gonna be like, you will understand. what i'm gonna do.
from here , i wish to hear from people, what should i do to be a girlfriend?
when i care, things seems to be bad, when i don't care, what am i ? i'm not putting any effort in a r/s ?
i miss my happy times !

i couldnt get through my best friend! i need him right now! buddy :( i got so much to tell you.