scolding day

i always try to to be a better daughter . i don't like to go home . why ?
my mum always love to threaten me . like don't come back better , or don't give me allowance .
i'm used to it actually .
even i keep quiet whenever she starts to scold me . what can i do to stop her scolding me .
she will never scold my brothers . NEVER !

i guess when i move out of this house she will be happier . or even i will be happier .
she won't have to waste her energy scolding me , and i dont have to stress of what to do .

if one day i leave i will still love her . i'm always the worst girl in her heart . she will never know how much she hurt me . just a little bit she will start to throw her temper on me . even my clothes , she will bother and nag . what about my brother? i'm so tired at times .

the fear within me , what can i do ?