Happiness of the Rain

i'm so happy about getting the E63 . tuesday wasn't a good day either . maybe i'm too fussy or picky . i think both . either choosing of bf or life . i'm sucks at it . sometimes i wish i could just turn my back to you and walk away . i can't face anything , you , your presence , your smell . i'm afraid to fall in love with the wrong guy . i don't know what to do . maybe god makes me think alot than them . life has been good this few days except quarrelling with mummy and daddy . mummy cut down my allowance by half . well i kept quiet . sometimes she don't give . i'm getting used to it . now i have to pay my bills too . i guess it's isn't the right time for me to get into a r/s or something . thanks to my best gf , krystal , she help me found a job as a cashier during this coming IT show . more income means lesser burden . and my the other part time job giving me stress , not as in stress , is because there's people keep looking at our goods and copy as my boss items . she acted like a friend to me , but infact she is trying to see what my boss is selling .

i just hope there's someone be there when i'm tired after work , talk to me , bring me for dinner , movie ? or even some chill outs . or maybe some small gifts or surprises . isn't it difficult ? i guess i'm not fussy at all ?