Happiness of the Rain

today wasn't my day . i almost end my life like this . alot things changes me . now i'm having phobia of guys . don't ask me why . i broke my promises , i cut myself and ate one box of panadol . now i'm spinning , and feel like vomit . i'm glad i have krystal , fishball and agnes with me . is dying the right thing to do ? i'm tired to move on . give me the strength to pick myself up .

the girls gave me the strength . to all the guys , please cherish the girls . they are fragile . they all are different . don't think they are all of a same kind .

i'm officially a lesbian . i can't get near to guys anymore . i will shiver . god please give me the power to live on . i won't want to get married anymore . guys are scary . tell me who i can trust .

P.S : i want to thanks and sorry to few people , krystal fishball agnes *uncle XF kaze and those who is worried about me . i promise you all i will move on as long as i'm still alive . i can't sleep , and im keep shivering . it's 6.47am now . my heart and mind is bleeding . tell me what to do ? i'm changing my number . sometimes i wish i could be more fierce .

another day has gone , i can't think of anything now . i want to tell mummy i love her . i will hold my temper and carry on .