My Heart tells

today i shall blog something , im listening to bye bye - mariah carey for the whole day if im not wrong .
i realise something , sometimes when someone is gone , you will tends to remember all the good times you had with someone precious .
i never knew i could end all the good times . but im truly thankful that i had my buddies like Buyong , Karen & etc with me . For all times , i knew that i had too much nags , what i said was all came from my heart .
i would never say bye to this people .

To my precious karen lim baby :
you are someone sweet , do you remember how often we used to go out together , we giggles at cute guys ( i guess it's me who is looking out for cute guys ) , shopping , even accompanied me for manicure without complain . You even helped me to save money when ever i thought of spending money . I hope that this good memories don't end so fast . you know what ? i once asked a friend , K* he is a tarot card reader , whatever i ask was about our friendship , he told me something , we are both a very good friends , you cherish me so do i . Im sorry about all the nonsense . You are one of the few buddies that could take my jokes , like saying you is a bloody bitch , you knew that im kidding yet you still ask me to be a gentle girl and not getting piss off . Anyway , i always wanted a BFF , and im always complaining about you not being able to be with me when i needs you . i know that you have a bf now for like 9 months . But still i hope that our next outing wont involve your bf , only both of us and the day will only be mine . And im sorry for not being understanding enough that you and i are in the different schools . I know you will always gives me the positive advices , and i happy that you are always with me . I once remember that you always support whoever guy im choosing . i appreciated it (: love you always . once last thing i wish to tell you is , cherish the guy you have now . Think back what you had done , try to recall , what thing you had done wrong . Like things you had said was hurtful or something that broke his heart and understand his situation . we are turning 19 this yr 2009 ! i wish everything goes smooth for you . and remember no more excuses and attitude . lastly don't skip lessons anymore sweet heart (:thanks for the 7 yrs friendship .

Second Part was for Buyong :
buddy , for the total like 5 yrs . you have always try to console me , teaching me not to be a ah lian . people always say that why are you my best buddy , all i would say is you never know him deep enough . Buddy , i know you always hope that i could get someone nice and that suits me . i even understand why you always giving me negative thoughts , you hate to see me upset ! after the 4 yrs of r/s with that guy , im deeply hurt once . you always ask me , why am i doing all this . you were once very supportive about me with that guy , but after the hard and tough break up , you don't want me to choose the wrong path . whenever i remember about our secondary school life , it was so fun , you even quarrelled with me for like 6 mths ? OMG . but that was tough , i wish that will never happens ! but it did . but this makes our friendship stronger . you will always be there for me when i needed someone . like when ever i called you , ' hey fat , where are you ? this sat you free not ? go out tgt okay ? ' you will always be there with me . and you will always did that to me too . i still remember you were so angry that i almost all the sat was unavailable , but still i never fail to call you up and you never fail to call me up asking each other life !~
and you are the buddy that no one can be compare with you . remember about all the gossip ? all the things that we talked about was so true . And i still laughing about how you disturb me in the public . so stupid alright ? you and jasmin even tried to match make me with hot guys ! and im always running away ! im sorry about it . but i will be more aproachable in the future . because i need to build up my circle of friends for my future (: anyway , hope you will be a great cook in the future . once a buddy forever a buddy (: and stop disturbing FAT rat !hhaa


some of you might wonder , what kind of girl am i ?
i can't answer you , only my buddies can answer you .
those true to me . those who dont make use of me .
the best person you can ask was Buyong and Karen (:
i cherish my family the most . because i know they will be there even during my hard times .
and my 2 lovely BFF , you two will always tells me , whoever telling tales about me are invisible , just ignore them right ? and i will (: because you all will believe me (: love you both (:

well , lastly , i wish that all my friends will be true to me (: no more lies alright ? stop all the backstabbing and whatever blah blah blah . whatever misunderstanding just tell me . im there (: