Happiness of the Rain

FIRSTLY , i want to thank wilson for helping me to get my stuffs at kovan .

i know today im kind of busy , but luckily i have you by my side .

i think back about my past recently , i been through so much things that i had totally forgotten .
i rem those days i had 2 very good sis , but we went seperate ways .
anyway i miss you two :D
those days was fun , we had everything together , just like close sisters :D

i always feel that im not good enough , sometimes there are few people asking me , why am i chasing away all the nice guys ?
im not a fool or a dumb , i just don't want to be selfish .
i rem the days there is someone got me to sentosa at night to celebrate his bdae .
i rem someone got me out for dinner every night ,
i rem someone got me a present every weekends ,
i rem someone got me a bunch of flowers every week ,
i rem someone is always there to fetch me home ,
i rem someone being there for me when i needed someone ,
i rem someone is there to protect me when i go to pub / clubs ,
i rem someone keeps me accompany doing my hair for 4 hrs ,
i rem someone was there when i needed someone for shopping ,
i rem someone always praising me ,
i rem someone always taught me about cars ,
i rem someone was there to guide me how to be a girl ,
i rem someone keeps me away from danger ,
i rem someone always got me chocolates ,
i rem someone dash through all the red lights just to stop my hand bleeding ,
i rem someone always fetch me after work when i work during holiday ,
i rem someone aways remind me to have my meals ,
i rem someone always bring me out whenever im free ,
i rem someone was there when i feel cold in the library studying ,
i rem someone was there when i skipped school ,
i rem someone brings me out for a spin when im sad ,
i rem someone loves me no matter who i am and how i looks like ,
i rem someone would give up his pride for me ,
i rem someone would not make me cry ,
i rem someone always there loving me for a few yrs ,
i rem someone when to decorate his car full of my pictures and name ,
i rem someone who gets me stuffs without thinking .
i rem someone who will bring me out to try out diff resturants .
and etc !~

about all this , i feel im blessed enough . that's how i live in the past .
i wanted to apologise for people who was there treating me nice .
i could only say is each guy have their diff good points .

and i wanted to forget about all this .
i want to start anew with my love ones .


i should feel happy that i have wilson with me .
you know what ,
i feel im the happiest girl in this life to be the one he love the most .
he bought me to his mum and dad .
they dotes on me , accept me althought i feel to be alone and single .
im not ready yet , i feel so confused .
maybe i had enough about the 4 yrs .
im afraid to be in love again .
but i wanted to give a try , to try to be with wilson again . can i ?
i want to be in his arms , been shower by him .
i want to stay happy and love (: