Happiness of the Rain

sometimes sometimes .
i ask myself , what's really in mind i want for my life or even my future .
i couldn't find the right answer .
am i searching for the best ?
there's never perfect in this life .
or maybe im giving myself too much stress .
I'm wondering , if there will be a way i could live my life in my perfect way .
i guess probably im thinking too much .
as i was thinking i know im still not at the age of deciding all this .

i can't figure it out something about me .
i have high expectation .
i want my life time partner to have that thinking too .
i'm not going for those kids who use their parents money to get stuffs for their gfs ?
i need a real man .

well all this should be at my age of 21 when i start thinking of this ?
mummy always say this to me , get a cert which can bring you everywhere .
i dont know how much i can do but i definitely will try my best .
and she told me this , so what if a girl everyday doll up like a most prettiest girl in the world but did you ever thought of what's on their face and body ?
it's all about the thick make up ,drawing eyes with eye liner like a panda , monthly facial , vitamins , fake eyes lashes , contact lenes that make their eyes bigger , or even more .
she always say natural beauty is the most prettiest . and a guy love you for who u r .
well , as usual i can only listen and i can't talk back !~ hahas

mummmy i love you .

and dear i love you too :D